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Today (or yesterday...?) I was falling asleep on my desk. Literally. I was having dreams. (Doesn't take much of a doze for me to dream, but still...) So I came home and took a nap. Didn't mean to take a long one. Just wanted to get some sleep. I slept for two hours. Then I got up, made fried chicken, curly fries, biscuits and mac and cheese (very healthy, I know), drank a dr pepper, and watched a movie. Around 11:30 I said, I NEED to get to bed. So I went to bed. Slept a few minutes. Now I'm wide awake. I feel fine, just a little stressed about not getting enough sleep.....

Ella Elf

Deep in the forest lived a little elf named Fred. He was in love with a fairy princess named Tibet. But she would have none of it. She did not like his funny ears.

Tibet was not a very nice fairy. She would turn the elves’ cookies into carrot sticks because they needed to “lose weight”. She spent hours looking into the stream to make sure her skin was flawless and her perfect body was still perfect. She and all her little fairy friends would flit about and laugh at the elves while they worked.

There was another little elf. Her name was Ella. Ella loved Fred but Fred didn’t know it because he was too busy watching Tibet. Ella was a quiet elf, too shy to tell anyone she loved Fred. So she went on her way, just loving him.

Then one day she realized he was a shallow jerk because he loved Tibet because she was pretty. So she determined in her heart that she would NOT pine after Fred. Fred would become fairy dust in her mind.

She focused all her energy on her work: making rocks for new stream bottoms. She made them nice and smooth and almost shiny. Sometimes, when Fred would not leave her mind alone she would make sharp rocks and imagine him wading through the stream and stepping on them.

One day a new elf stumbled into the forest. This elf was named Jack. He had been injured by a deer. The deer had not meant to injure him. He was running and didn’t see Jack. But Jack could barely walk and could travel no further.

Ella took Jack into her tree and nursed him back to health. While nursing him she learned that his previous home had been destroyed by fire. He had fought til the end, trying to put out the fire. He was not successful and now he was looking for a new village to live in.

As Jack’s health improved he helped Ella with anything he could. Her tree was always clean when she came home from making rocks. Her bed of leaves were always in perfect order, more comfortable than she herself could ever arrange them. He even made her a new bench to sit on.

One day Ella realized she no longer thought about shallow Fred. She hadn’t made a single sharp rock in a week. Instead, her rocks were shiny now, smoother than ever before. And she realized she had been thinking of Jack the whole time.

She wondered what Jack thought of Tibet and her friends. Did he, like Fred, prefer them to her? They were much more beautiful to be sure. But did beauty matter to him or perhaps could he see past the outside to see what was hidden inside her. She wasn’t even sure what all was inside her. She was afraid to discover, lest it really wasn’t any better than Tibet and her friends. Alas, she had made sharp rocks in hopes that Fred would step on them! Surely that meant she was selfish and no good. Ah, but she was probably just as bad as Tibet. Given Tibet’s power, maybe she would turn elves’ cookies to carrot sticks.

Then one day Jack announced he was leaving. He was recovered, she had to admit. Had been for days, but she hadn’t said anything because she really didn’t want him to leave. He had become a friend to her, if nothing more. And he hadn’t said if he was choosing this village or maybe he was leaving for good! She said goodbye and cried as she worked, her rocks again losing their shine.

Jack had been gone for two weeks when Ella decided she must put him out of her mind as well. Apparently he was not coming back and her rocks had become sharp again. She was successful, mostly. At least her rocks were smooth again. Mostly.

One day she was cleaning her tree when there was a knock at the door. It was Jack. He professed his undying love for her. They were married that day and Jack took her away to a beautiful, flower-filled meadow where she no longer had to make rocks. She could do whatever she liked. So they had three baby elves and they lived happily ever after.

Restless...?

I don't know what my deal is tonight. I feel kinda.. sad..? I don't know. I can't decide exactly what it is I'm feeling.. But motivated is NOT it. I don't want to do anything online, but yet I can't get off the couch. I don't want to clean, but I don't want to not clean. I just can't explain it. I feel a little lost... and.. homesick...

Home phone!

I'm so excited! I'm getting a home phone! I've been wanting to get one ever since moving here, so this is just wonderful!! And I'll be getting internet, so no more of this wishy washy stuff. :)

In other news, I'm slightly disappointed on how little I'm enjoying this blog... And that I haven't taken up writing.... Ok, I'm going to write something. This is fresh. Please! Constructive criticism only! And if it's cliche.. well, I'm sorry.

It was a beautiful spring day. The sun was shining brightly and the sound of birds singing filled the air. The flowers were just blooming, still too shy to show their face. The ground was still cool, not yet warmed from winter. Too cold to go barefoot, yet my feet couldn't stand it any longer. My mother always said the first of May, but I just couldn't bear to wear shoes another day. And April 4th is nearly the first of May. Winter was over and I was celebrating. Sniffles wouldn't kill me.

I walked along the creek bank, sandals in hand, enjoying the energetic peace of being alone with nature. Well, mostly alone. The sound of children playing could be heard in the distance, but far enough away that it was pleasant. I prayed and daydreamed and thought random thoughts, letting my mind wander where it would. Soon enough I would have to focus on unpleasant things. But for now, I would enjoy this moment.

Super excited!!

We're going to see Tim Hawkins tonight!! WOOT WOOT!! I'm so excited! I really hope we get good seats! Tho, if Amy and John don't get here soon we'll be lucky to GET a seat! :) Ok, so I bought the tickets a month ago, but still! :)

My house is clean again! Don't get me wrong, I try and keep it mostly clean. But I haven't had a mop and I kept putting off cleaning the bathroom (gross, I know) but I finally cleaned it today!

blogging

I haven't stopped... I've simply lost my internet connection.....

Spring!

Spring is in the air! I'm so glad I don't have to drag my coat around anymore! I have little yellow flowers coming up in my yard and other things that I'm not sure what they are yet coming up in my flower bed. I'm hoping something really nice.. I need something to dress up my house a bit.

I walked home on lunch. I don't know that I'll make a habit of it. It takes too long. I had to eat on my way back. But it was nice for a change. I really enjoyed it. I heard a tiller on the way back. Made me think of dad. Then I got to thinking about how we kids and mom used to walk to town. Just want to be a kid again.

Nettie and I took off early to go see grampa. He seemed in good spirits. He was playing Scrabble on Aunt Liz's laptop. Looked weird. Then he got a phone call on a cell phone. That REALLY looked weird. Shoulda taken a pic. :) Gramma seemed in good spirits, but she's really worn out. She gets so confused. It's so sad. But we had a good visit.

Mikah came home with me. We're going shopping tomorrow! And Sunday is Kidz Church! :) Fun fun fun!!

She tells us on the way home, "I had a tattoo. It was a nudicorn." LOL!!! Then she was telling us about the "rhino or whatever it's called" on Discovery channel that had a string in it's "thin" (fin. It was a dolphin, or so it seems.) and it was pregnic. lol. She can count to 100. She did so twice. :) Actually the second time it was 124. Then I think she got bored. She cracks me up!

I guess I should head to bed... No sleeping in tomorrow! I'll be lucky to make it to 8:00.

Writing

I was sitting at work with nothing to do, so I decided to try writing. I simply took a name and started creating the person to whom the name belonged to. It was amazing how easily the words flowed! Ok, it was all pretty cliche. But still!! It's a start.

See, I'm terrified to even try because I'm afraid I'll just lock up and won't be able to think of a thing to say. The writing I've done lately has been written when the words were flowing through my brain anyway. So to try and sit and write something that hasn't yet been formed as a thought.. It's scary. I can't really describe it... I just want to be able to write so bad! If I'm not successful I will be so disappointed.

Dreams

I dream every night. Sometimes several dreams in one night. Sometimes one big long dream with several high points that don't really tie together, but in my dream they did.

Last night I dreamed Matthew McConaughey was at our house. Like, he and a couple of other ppl. He was just a real guy. Like, he seemed like an old friend. We were sad when he had to leave and he seemed sad too. He also caught me blogging about it in my dream. hahaha. It was a really fun dream. Which is good, because lately I've been dreaming a lot of really bizarre stuff that is sometimes a bit haunting....

And here begins...

I'm not sure what, really.. Other than a blog no one will read. But that's ok. Because I like to write. And it gives me another place to practice my creative writing. :)

Note to self: Take more pics! You have no good pics of your neices and nephews, and that's just sad.

What's sadder.. more sad? anyway.. sad to a greater degree.. is, I'm missing my beautiful niece in her most precious months. But I have peace, knowing I am where God has called me to be.

Speaking of God and calling.. I really need to go over the puppet skit I'm doing in kidz church next weekend! Wow! It snuck up on me! Can't believe it's already been a month.. Really looking forward to being a part, tho I'm a bit nervous... But they're kids, and the beautiful thing is, they'll love it even if I don't do it perfectly.

Well.. I need to decide.. Spend a few more minutes online then go to bed or watch a movie, meaning I'll be up a tad late? Not like I'm going to expend my energy on the job.. And I'll fall asleep either way.. But I WOULD like to get a recipe for hot spinach dip... Another day, perhaps.. not like I'm going to make it tomorrow...

Alright, I guess that means goodnight, all! Or goodnight me... I guess..