I'm Invincible

In one of my previous posts I said I felt invincible. At the time I wrote that I was making huge changes in my life. I was losing weight, I was making difficult decisions, I was changing my life completely. Sometimes I forget just how much I've changed my life.

I still believe I'm invincible, in theory. I believe I could do anything I set my mind to do. Until it comes time to put it into action. Making huge changes seems impossible at times. Imagining myself in stellar shape, able to run a mile? No way! But why not? I've made more difficult changes.

I'm much stronger emotionally than physically. But that doesn't mean I can't be strong physically, too.

I can do anything!

Web design..?

I had so much fun updating my blogs I just want to create a new blog just so I can make it pretty. haha. :) Maybe I should be in web design... Nettie should be for sure!!

The wonders of internet...

I don't spend a lot of time online. Well, let me back up: I do. But it's usually like this: Facebook, Yahoo, Blogger, Facebook... Hulu. Facebook.

I forgot that you can do some REALLY cool stuff with Blogger etc when you take time... (Of which I have plenty...)

Yahoo updated their email (thank goodness! I was about to switch!) so I upgraded my internet browser tonight. (To Firefox. I couldn't get IE 9 to download..) This made my internet work MUCH faster and just better, overall... So I updated my weight loss blog: Watch me lose!  It looks amazing! Now I want to update this blog but.. It's midnight.. I have to work tomorrow. I really should go to bed....

Life is Good

Today was a wonderful day and I'm in a great place in my life. I'm finally finding some happiness. I think I'm happier right now than I've ever been. There's just not much I could ask for.

I'm finding the strength within myself to make the changes that I need to become the person I need to be. It's exciting! I feel invincible.

I think it's time for me to keep a journal again. I've kept one off and on for years. Since I was ten, at least. But I haven't kept one in a while.. Not that I have anything interesting to say... But it would be good exercise (mentally) to write every day.

It's a lot easier to write, actually write with a pen and paper, than to type. Typing is the quickest route to writer's block for me...

Speaking of writing.. I thought of the Elf story I wrote last year. haha. Went back and read it.. I think I was losing it a little bit. :)

Life

Wow! I was just reading back over my last few posts. It's crazy how things change. When I think back over the past year it's hard to comprehend everything that took place. I can't believe I actually moved and again, I moved back. Two things I never thought I'd actually be able to follow through with. And now I don't know which one was a mistake or maybe none of it was, it was all just part of what had to be to make me who I need to be for the future. I, for sure, can't sort it out. I miss the people in Missouri, I miss spending time with my sister, I miss my house. Yet, at the same time, I'm so much happier here in ways.

I think about it all a lot. And I always come to the same conclusion. It all really did happen, as unreal as it seems, and I can't look back. I just have to quit trying to sort it all out and press forward towards the future and all the mysteries it holds. One thing I've learned, tho. You can never predict the future. It just never comes out like you think it will.

I need to start writing again.

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My mind is going in circles! Something like this:

I can't talk to anyone because no one would take it like I say it. They would read more into it. Even if I told them that's not how it is, they wouldn't believe me. Do I believe me? Or am I kidding myself? Maybe I'm kidding myself... See, I'm doubting it so I must be. Or am I only doubting myself because I questioned myself because other ppl would doubt it?

Why can't I just let it go, if it is what I say it is? Why is it still bothering me? Is it because it's what I say it is or is it something more? Am I capable of what I say it is?