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My mind is going in circles! Something like this:

I can't talk to anyone because no one would take it like I say it. They would read more into it. Even if I told them that's not how it is, they wouldn't believe me. Do I believe me? Or am I kidding myself? Maybe I'm kidding myself... See, I'm doubting it so I must be. Or am I only doubting myself because I questioned myself because other ppl would doubt it?

Why can't I just let it go, if it is what I say it is? Why is it still bothering me? Is it because it's what I say it is or is it something more? Am I capable of what I say it is?